I have moved to Peru after having spent nearly 8 years in Bolivia, a place which leaves you breathless with its spectacular mountains of the Andes, thick jungle, desert, the biggest saltflats in Uyuni and lots of farmland. It is a very indigenous country and is still struggling to overcome its challenging history since the colonization by the Spaniards, followed by corrupt dictatorships, including racism and repression.

And one can strongly feel these marks in the energy of the towns, cities and in its people, who are more introverted, shy and at times even submissive (especially in the Andes). Nevertheless, something gripped my gut so strongly when I arrived with a heavy tonsillitis by bus the first time

In my last blog entry had written about one of the soul contracts that my puppies have been practicing with me over the last few weeks. But there is more I would love to share. Since the beginning, the idea of being a second mum to puppies has been challenging to me. Not that I didn´t love the idea, but I live in Peru, where animals are very often not seen and treated the way most (let me plainly say) Westerners do.

9 weeks have passed since our puppies had been born and it has been one of the most exciting and magical times in my life. It has been a completely new experience for me to have a pregnant dog at home, watching her belly grow, playing less, then changing her general attitudes and giving birth unexpectedly one evening on our sofa.

Find out how things evolved and what the puppies taught me.

A couple of days ago was, 22 September – date for the Equinox, the start of spring time here in South America. I can notice already the cold disappearing, which I am so grateful for. J When connecting to the Equinox´s energy I felt the desire to reflect on what happened the last three months and where it has taken me until today. The journey was quite unexpected, but I guess it is always that way, once we let go of a mind-chosen path. Believe it or not, but my journey has taken me back to life.

I had been wanting to write for the last couple of weeks, but somehow words didn´t flow to express what is currently going on inside me and in my life. But before leaving for the long awaited trip to Colombia this morning, I want to write down, maybe even more for myself, of what has changed during the last couple of months inside me.

Good morning on the second day of Elipse season. It is a shaky time for most of us, probably even all of us. Eclipses are times for change, shifting, healing and growing. And we never know in which direction of our inner and outer self it is heading.

So, I woke up and felt some energy for the first time in weeks, which allowed me to DO something.

I have been diagnosed with three different kinds of parasites and a virus. As if one type of parasite wouldn´t be enough?! I have been living in South America for 8 years, I thought I had become pretty resistant to any dirty food or water. But at least I know now, why I feel so knocked out and in physical pain for weeks by now. And no medicine, neither alternative nor traditional helps so far.

August is a very special month in the Andean world, it is time to give gratitude to our existence and all existence. It is time to honor and to connect to our inner selves and to all that is. Pachamama represents not only Mother Earth as many think, but Mama = mother and Pacha = time and space. So it is the totality of all, the cosmos, the here and now.

How did it affect me?

I am lying in bed with a strong flu and looking over to my growing family surrounding me, resting on the floor. For some people it might be strange to have their dogs living with them in their house, for me it has never been a question.

Anyways, I´d like to share with you that a few days ago I went out with friends for the day and left my dogs running happily and freely on our big property. When returning home I only found my two young dogs Lola and Chaska welcoming us, but not Killa and Inti

The wind is blowing strongly the last couple of days and I am observing the leaves flying in the wind, the air rushing vividly through the branches of our trees in the back garden. I am feeling very connected to them these days and wonder whether they are representing my inner landscape. It is Monday afternoon. Nobody arrived for my afternoon session on animal communication that I have advertised in different places.

Just yesterday I had still been so connected and rooted in being, but it is crazy how quickly a storm can appear, that doesn´t let me fall asleep tonight. What caused it? A beautiful camp fire in the back garden surrounded by beautiful friends. They are wonderful and strong to me, and I meet more and more free spirits on my current life path: Young people, who are tired of a society system of control, narrow views of life, restricted freedom and who are looking for a deeper meaning in life: Why was I born? What is my purpose in life? How can I do my part so that the world will be a more peaceful, happier and cleaner place? It is amazing, so why doesn´t it let me sleep? Because I am impressed with the age of them, they are in their 20s and wake up already to change their way of living.
And I suddenly did something, that one shouldn´t do.

When moving to Peru I knew that a new phase in my life had once started again. It is the third time that I had been giving up my life of security with regards to a home, safe job and income, friends and family.

Searching - but what for?

It is the first time in about 7 weeks that I am sitting in front of my computer with the intention of sharing some thoughts publically again. It feels scary and strange as I have been going through a very profound physical, mental and emotional process since my move to Peru last December, which had been much more intensified during and after my soul level animal communication retreat with horses in May in Costa Rica.

I thought two dogs would be fun in my live, but I guess the universe wants to teach many more messages from the dogs. I have been realizing that these days and am very grateful for the insights I received.
Read here about my more and more intensive encounter with messages of the dog world.

I am working on establishing my business, because I know the time has come to bring my wisdom further out into the world so I can help people to shift their perspective on life and heal old wounds in order for them to find clarity and fulfillment. 

Apart from my intuitive work as an animal communicator I have been doing energy healing for a couple of years now to help unblock dense energies and to connect the client to a high vibrational energy which he/she generally notices in feelings of more inner peace, unconditional love and happiness. It can also help calming physical problems. Through this work I started developing the ability of clairvoyance, seeing the causes of a person´s blockages or dense energy and therefore started sharing the received information at the end of my sessions so that the person can understand better a present fear, lack of happiness, success or a physical pain and can then take necessary action. It is a fact, that we generally fall quickly into the same old believe patterns of not feeling good enough, safe or protected, no feeling loved, if we do not consciously work on ourselves as well.  

But how can we continue or start to work on ourselves?

My dog Killa came into my life as a small puppy about 4 years ago together with her brother Inti. When I both saw them for the first time, I just knew, that these would be their names: Killa – Moon and Inti – Sun in the indigenous language Quechua. At that time I had no idea yet, how these names would be reflected in their personality and even more in their work with me.

Today Killa wanted me to tell you about her and the connection to our - and my - feminine side.

I am just sitting in my garden with a bottle of water, which I have collected from the stream on my afternoon´s walk in the local mountains. Sitting by the river I knew, what I wanted to share with you today.

During the last animal communication readings I frequently got the message for my clients from their pets to connect to nature. Why is that? We are so programmed to being in our mind: constantly busy on doing something, thinking about the next task, worrying about something in the future, planning on what we are going to cook for dinner tonight or dwelling in the past. Our mind is permanently active. There is nothing wrong with our mind working, but when it is the time for it to work. And who controls that? YOU! Nobody else. And it feels so challenging to stop the permanent chatter. Well, this is how it feels to me. But what can be done about it?

It is evening already, I am not feeling so well today and I wanted to postpone writing this post, but I promised myself that I want to write and connect every day. Yes, I am sharing this little detail, because I want to be honest and share not only information, but the feelings, emotions and sensations behind my thoughts and actions.
I have always been worried about writing something publically, although I am journaling frequently. But my mind always says, the text needs to be perfect. But to what standard, who am I comparing it to? We generally always compare ourselves to others – presentation, appearance, success, abundance, the way the other person acts or expresses him/herself and so on. As a consequence we live in fear, anxiety, anger, frustration, the feeling of lack. Why not do, what you feel is the best YOU can do for yourself and just do it. And this is why I am starting to publish these posts as a request of the animals that want me to pass on their voice.

Here is my first of my now regular posts about animal (and more) connection and it is of course going to be about Pumachaska, a puppy. (see yesterday´s post)

I don´t ever look at posts about animal abuse or lost animals, because they make me angry, sad or frustrated. But yesterday, my eyes caught for some reason a post on a local facebook group about a couple of puppies that had been found in the street. I don´t even know, when y how I responded "Are they still available?".