Cat wisdom

Someone should understand my female cat Mimi, who I want to strongly feel to write about today ... Mimi was always quite shy and not really cuddly, which I assumed begin rare for domestic cats who spend most of their lives with cuddly people.

After Mimi had given birth to her 6 kittens almost two years ago, I had her castrated and although we kept a cat boy - K'anchay, which I have already written about in previous blogs, cat mum Mimi withdrew more and more from me and became extremely shy, even aggressive and didn't want to put up with any more petting. This often frustrated and even annoyed me.

Almost two years have gone by, almost the same period of time as my intensive therapeutic process here in the Peruvian Andes, which arose from the deep desire to heal many deep (especially masculine) wounds and to not only awaken the sacred femininity in me, but also to internalize and to make it a part of my life.

Part of my therapeutic work involved creative tasks - and beautifully reawakened the creativity I had banished in my youth. Over time, I noticed how Mimi made herself more and more comfortable at my side while I was embroidering, making music, painting or working with clay. It soon became notoriously noticeable. At times she slept on my altar, which has been supporting my process from the beginning.

She slowly liked it again to be petted, but she never purred. At times I had wondered if she had problems with her vocal cords. In the last few months, however, I noticed clearly that not only her enjoyment of my caresses, but also her trust opened up. She started to play with me and at times also transformed into a passionately purring panther.

Tonight I'm sitting in front of my altar again and Mimi came back to me after a while, wanted to play, purred and is now cuddling up to my leg, gives me confirmation again that we both have femininity, and thus the trust, the gentleness, the Dedication and learning to embrace learning to receive. She has accompanied me in her special way and through her behavior to understand, embrace and slowly transform my fears, traumas., anger, denial, fury and so on. And because of my changed behavior, she has changed the way she interacts with me now in such incredible and magical ways.

This is exactly what animals teach us - through their positive or negative behavior, through their peculiarities and illnesses, sometimes even through their disappearance from our world, THEY TEACH US to get to know us better, to heal wounds, to find more clarity - simply to BECOME A BETTER PERSON. We only have to open our hearts to understand their form of communication. Thank you Mimi for your patient work with me - healing is a process. And I am so thankful for all beings who accompany me in such a wonderful way.

A different kind of dog´s message

Today I want to share with you an animal communication with a very different purpose that occurred to me twice over the last few weeks and therefore caught my attention.

I have been visiting my friend various times and the neighbour´s dog really caught my eye with his presence. He so much touched my heart, which is something that I pay attention to as an animal communicator, because when something moves us, I know there is a soul contract involved between the human and the animal. I started asking about him to find out that his owners had left for Brazil and nobody knew when they would be back. A relative came by a couple of times a week to give him food, the rest of the time this amazing dog was left alone in the garden.

Our connection, his surrender when I stroke him and the story moved me so much, that I decided to adopt him until the owners´ return. My friend asked, then we lost contact and suddenly I felt no more of his presence, which somehow was strange but I trusted.

It turned out that my friend´s phone call and my wish for adoption had moved the family so much, that the relative started properly looking after the dog and that the daughter decided to return from Brazil to give her god the so much needed love and attention, he had asked for. The young lady and dog Sami both are happily together again and I cried tears of gratitude.

Gratitude, that I had moved everything to help this dog, then surrendering to the situation with a prayer of his wellbeing. And so it turned out.

And pretty much the same happened a few days again when someone posted about an abandoned dog, who urgently needed a new home. Once again I was so moved and decided to move all the energy for his wellbeing, last chance adopting him, letting him know, that he would not end up in the street, but also taking into consideration my own physical limits with all the animals that I have. I have no idea how it happened, but suddenly I received the message, that the owner had been found and that the dog was safe.

It still feels weird, having helped the animals in a very new way, not aware of the consequences of my connection with them. I generally “speak” to them when I feel a soul contract and ask what can be done, what they want to share but this time I just acted, letting them know that there are not alone.

Thank you for the lessons of utter trust and action from that place of the heart, without words, just being present.

Giving gratitude

I felt that the end of the Gregorian year no longer mattered to me, because I thought it was just a date or maybe because I celebrated this year in a very special way the new return to the sun - the solistice and Christmas, but sitting at my altar I realize that something inside myself wants to say good buy. It may be that the 31 ot december is coming closer (and all the collective feelings that lead to this feeling), it may be that I finally have a little time for myself, it may be that I have to write the post, once more giving voice to my heart:

I want to thank my blood family for their love, for having always done the best they could for me and once again I am sorry for having had to go for so long so far to find myself, to heal me, to give birth to who I really am and where I come from.

On this day I want to thank my little family that I created, who brought me and continues to bring me so much medicine full of light and darkness to find harmony, peace, clarity and healing.

I thank all my friends in so many parts of the world that I have been able to meet, with whom I have been able to share special moments. Some of them have been short, some of them lasted for months, even years or decades - travels, parties, work, casual encounters, encounters on the path of healing - I now believe that all have been encounters that greatly brought healing, since the awakened consciousness, being part of a big unique puzzle. There were disagreements, they are part of life, were are human beings walking our indivudial path of life here on earth. I have hurt persons and I deeply apologize for uncoscious words or acts. At this moment, when there is so much separation, I carry us even more in my heart, we may have different opinions, different experiences. That is life, but the heart unites us. And I apologize for having spent a lot of time in my "cave" (that used to be filled with fear, darkness, lonelyness, anger, abandonment, negación etc.) that I finally managed to honor and love and therefore heal, for which many times I do not communicate. But it became an incredibly sacred and healing space for me.

I want to so much honor and thank my homeland with its rivers, seas, forests, hills and mountains, my ancestors. I humbly honor and thank the powerful apus: caretakers, protectors and healers, the lagoons and rivers with the presence of the ancestors who welcomed and guided me all throughout this time here in the land of Tawantinsuyo and the Sacred Valley of the Incas. I thank the Great Mother Earth for all her unconditional love, for her abundance, her elements: sacred fire, water, air and earth for being such a great medicine, being such great messengers, all the invisible beings that surround us, full of wisdom and love.

Each one has been and still is a great teacher for me. I lower my head in humbleness and gratitude, opening my heart for my love and affection so it can reach you. Each one of you is unique in my heart.

Haylli Pachamama. Danke. Thank you.

Wishing you a harmonious end to the year.

Nothing is less than a pilgrimage

The sacred mountain from my garden

I have been living literally on the foot of Apu Tantanmarka for nearly five years, but never felt a calling to visit its peak - Until she revealed herself to me as a feminine energy just a few days ago and since then kept calling.

So I used my family free Sunday to visit her with a hike and an offering to honour her new presence in my life. And whilst doing so, once again, I was called on all my pain and sadness,releasing my tears to this ancient female sacred mountain and to mother earth.

Killa and me at Tantanmarka top

My dogs generally accompany me and I wanted to honour my female dog KILLA in this post and all her teachings for me but things drastically changed when we returned the same way we came from. Foxy, my male dog stepped and then fell into a tremendous cactus, yelling in pain. Taking the long and thick cactus spines out of his body and partly out of mine (as I needed to rescue him) took incredible strength and pain. He was in such agony that he didn't want to carry on walking any more, surrendering, staying behind.

I had to carry him at times, encourage and persuade him. Finally we decided to take another route which worked out to be much easier for us to get back.

There I understood the lesson: "Get these painful spines out of your heart that still hurt you so much, be strong and keep going. Everything will be OK. You don't have to walk the challenging route full of spines, danger and pain, there is another path, just as accessible to you. Let's walk it together." And so we did. We always have a choice.

It is so terrible and heartbreaking what animals go through for us to get the messages through to us, that are meant for our own life journey. Sometimes they don't find another way (like this painful message from my dog Foxy) to move our emotions and to put us back on our path. They can show it in this way, in certain behaviours, illnesses and even their choice of passing from this life time.

Do you have an animal that challenges you and you don't understand why? I help you uncover the messages that your beloved pet wants to bring forward to you for the evolvement of your soul and a deeper connection between you and your furry friend.

What makes an extra chicken in your life?

In numbers I have a balance in my family members who accompany my dearly and lovingly by constantly pushing my buttons.

Two dogs, one male and female. Two cats, one male and female and... As I used to say "my three" chickens who used to put an extra weight on more feminine power. Balancing the masculine and feminine energies inside me has been a topic that has been very powerful in my own healing process and still is and my animals show me through their (mis) behaviour where I stand.

The males (incl. my little boy) are strong, stubborn, persistent and csn drive me with these attitudes against the wall.

The females are shy, always in the background, hardly visible.

What does it say about me and my energies inside me? Yes, my animals are a reflection of my female and masculine energy. And believe me, I have changed already a lot but their strong presence and actions as well as behaviours show me how much more (and it is a life long) I still have to walk.

Now the chickens... As mentioned I thought they would push forward the feminine energy. When I got back from holidays a few weeks ago I thought about my third one that my little boy got for his birthday: wow, you are growing big for a, chicnen... A few days ago at 4.30 am the first attempts of something like a kikeriki... I nearly fell off my bed because within days this apparent lovely chicken turned into a proud strong cock. I am confused, worried and so stunningly surprised, still unsure what medicine he will bring forward, because I really don't know whether he can stay with us. But that is an animal story that I had a few times in my life: should he/she stay or go??? And generally they stayed... Even more worrying... I will keep you updated.

And read in my next post on how female and masculine animal energies have pushed puttons and now move their buttons to ns into different directions.

We all have soul contracts with animals, especially with our pets. Through their behaviour, their illnesses and even passing THEY want to teach US to be be better humans as they are beings of unconditional love and light. Want to know more, check out my website: Www.intuitivekatja.com

The power of nature – the power of love

I still need to keep looking for my breath, holding coca leaves in my hands and processing what is happening, because I still can´t really grasp it. I stopped believing a long time ago that coincidences happen and less when you see miracles with your own eyes. I want to share just one of my recent tremendous encounters with nature and share with you how deeply connected we are…

I have been intensively working for a couple of years on healing my ancestral heritage – a path through a lot of darkness, death, denial, fear, anger, power struggle and so much more. Recently I opened a new chapter and felt accompanying this process profoundly with the sacred energy of the water.  Water represents the female energy of the mother, the flow of life, it connects to our emotions. And this chapter of life was completed connected to the rejection of emotions, denial and therefore no flow of water and life energy. During the first couple of days of receiving this energy, my natural garden pond flooded. Yep, you may think it is a coincidence. I tell you, that my pond is in shape of a heart, where water constantly enters and disappears on the other side – and has been doing so for many years already.

And with the opening of this new energy work chapter, suddenly the water didn´t disappear any more, it somehow was blocked and it got dangerously high (for having a small child and many animals), at times it looked like it was going to overflow. I tried to get help, to unblock, put prayer… but nothing, it stayed blocked, got dirty and me moving for three weeks  between concern and trusting in the tremendous natural messengers around me, that had not failed me ever.

Yesterday I officially finished this chapter with a closing ceremony and an offering by the river. Today in the morning once again the water rose dangerously – and it is complete madness… out of nowhere the pond unblocked and the water disappeared today, bringing it back to normal, as if nothing had happened. I know that this is the message of mother water, mama Yaku, who had heard my prayers, that healing is taking place – THAT WE ARE NOT ALONE. Me we be very observant of everything around us, everything and everyone has a powerful message for us. Be careful with your thoughts, wishes and desires – they may be heard and come true. ;) Be humble and grateful.

My animals – not only my pets – have also been incredible messengers of this process and not only one has sacrificed itself during this transformative journey. A lot needs to be shared still, but a week ago, one of my baby chickens sacrificed itself in the famous flooded heart-shaped pool, the little child that had not able to fly, that drowned in the overflow of unexpressed and unprocessed emotions. May you be blessed little sister and fly high with the stars on the night sky. I received your message. Every night we say good night to you in the starry sky.

May life flow, may emotions be able to be expressed and be embraced, they are all part of us and scream for our presence. And the trees are whistling its confirmation.

Three little piglets

I live in the countryside here in the Sacred Valley of Peru and it is one of my regular activities to go for a walk across the fields with my little nearly three year old boy. He is just as connected to animals as I am and therefore loves interacting with animals (and plants as well). For a few weeks we had the honour of being able to enjoy the presence of three little piglets and their mum in a nearby field. We sometimes spent an hour watching their playful activities, their connection with their mum, the funny sounds they made and the constant happy tail wiggling.

A couple of weeks ago we noticed that two of the piglets were gone, I assume they had been sold. ACCEPTANCE. So, we enjoyed mum and one piglet, that became more curious and playful every time.

A couple of days ago we went once again for a walk to enjoy mum and baby, but upon arrival the little one was alone and no mum in close view. My little boy was wondering, searching and asking, where mum had gone. My stomach tightened and walking a few meters further we saw the puddle of blood  and in the backyard a dead pig mum in a wheelbarrow. My body tightened, eyes became wet and my stomach hurt. I decided to carry on the walk I took some deep breaths and sat down. What came over me was gratitude. GRATITUDE to life, the feeling of surrendering to what is life and death. THIS IS the circle of life, as challenging as it looks and feels. I feel gratitude to living so close to LIFE, to nature and humble native families here where I live, because every one of these powerful encounters with mother nature and our interaction as humans with her, makes me feel more connected to life and the circles of life.

The pig mum was in peace. I felt here peace, I felt her presence and her surrender to what is. She was ok with it and my breath took me to that same state, that everything was ok. I gave thanks to her, to her life as a sister of mine and as a mother and to the many beautiful moments that we had shared together.

Life is so tremendously powerful.

PS: Thank you, dear Cleo that you asked and pushed me to start sharing my animal encounters again. Yes, I will start writing again.

Do you believe in a time of change?

I asked myself whether mankind has learned and learned from the experiences of quarentine, instrospection and dealing with mother nature and how it will go on. Will people go back to their unconscious habits?

I got the following response from my guides:

Imagine YOU were the representation of humanity, YOU were the universe, how would you rate yourself and the world?

Just look inside yourself, give space to all your facets. Do not seek an image of yourself, not what your parents, religion, society, or spiritual masters have taught you to be. You are a colorful rainbow with ALL feelings, thoughts, emotions - EVERYTHING is part of you.

If you want a change in humanity, do not look outside, just ask yourself and in fact only yourself: What do I not accept and embrace (yet) in and in me? Finally start embracing all of your pain (mentally and physically), FINALLY allowing all of your emotions. In doing so, I mean not to suppress them anymore, but also not to act and react, but to finally give them the necessary space, the attention and love that they have been longing for so long that they need so much! Without rating, without blaming, without falling into the victim role! But in conscious observation, consciously allowing, feeling and accepting. BREATHING, THANKS! Cry, scream, dance, sing. I have shed so many tears in the past few months like never in my life and I know it has no end. I don't judge, I admit and thank everyone. They are tears of years, maybe even generations of suppressed pain.

Values, the guilt of the other, looking outside comes from the head. This is also part of you, of all of us. Accept the valuation, the seeking escape as part of yourself, embrace this too, do not push it away. BREATHING, THANKS!

Light and dark, good and bad, pain and joy, high vs. low vibration, enlightened and not enlightened ... name what you want, for me these are concepts, evaluations, they separate us from others and above all from our true self and what we really are: energy , raw and pure, in constant motion.

MICRO IS MACRO, there are so many medical songs and texts that we are connected to each other, that we are a drop in the big sea, are part of the whole. Indispensable and irreplaceable. So it is, but it is the task of each individual - and ONLY of each individual, to let this thought become his reality IN himself, to think, to understand, to feel and then to be able to live it, one with the whole, with to be able to do everything. Then you are the creator of the reality you want. No more is needed. You are creation and creation and at the same time creator.

I'm so sorry. Please forgive me. I love you. Thanks a lot. If you feel alone with everything that comes up in you or difficulties with the current situation, which show up in fears, worries, anger, despair or other, I offer you accompaniment through my coaching and healing sessions or through a session, where we connect with your spiritual companions and I channel their messages for you. Our guides see our life from an eagle's perspective.

Is healing a myth?

This little friend in my garden yesterday without a tail inspired me to this writing .

What means "healing" and also to be "healer"? I have often asked myself this question in the past few weeks and months.

I am trying to share my current answer to the question from both perspectives with humbleness and from my current understanding.
Clients come to me and ask to be finally at peace with themselves and the world around them from their pain, their fear, their anger. no more pain in the broken heart, to feel that the sleepless nights, restlessness, fainting, despair or anger provoke from them.

For example, how can you find abundance on the outside if you still don't feel worth enough in your deepest inner self? How can you call the partner of your life into your life if you still don't feel, accept and love yourself enough?

Yes, as a shamanistic practitioner and thus my connection with the spiritual world, it is possible for me to release your blockages, send positive energies, balance energy centers and even recover lost soul parts for you, but is that the solution? Meanwhile, I see it similar to a glass of wine, a bliss experience during meditation or in the experience with a medicine plant (i.e. Ayahuasca) that generally only brings temporary "healing".

But I know - and I speak here from my own experience - that this feeling does not last long. At some point, maybe very soon, fear, anger, despair will come up again.

And here is the point: nobody can take away these feelings and the resulting negative thoughts and (re)actions for you, release them from you. They are YOUR little children who want to be heard, felt and hugged by YOU and at the very moment when they call you, when you feel them. Our society, and I also involve many spiritual masters, promise happiness, contentment, abundance, inner peace. But these are results that tear us away from the here and now and what life is trying to show you and on the other hand it is purely result-oriented. How about FINALLY accepting all of our imperfection within us instead of pushing it further away from us, not wanting to heal and transform it, but looking at it as something sacred and accepting it in all of its present existence?

I've tried an incredible amount of healing ways in my life to “heal myself”, but I've never given myself the opportunity to actually feel all the pain, anger, and dis-empowerment in all its facets, to give it all the necessary space that it actually longs for - and also as long as necessary. Whether meditation, mantras, plant medicine, affirmations, energy work etc. at some point I was back to zero.

Now I realize, thanks to my inner process and thus also the quarantine and all the medicine that it brought and still brings, that the search for the so-called healing is a repressing and accepting of our small children. A lost job, a broken heart, the loss of a person or an animal, etc. - all of these events are powerful medicine that you consciously need to live and embrace as long as it is necessary. A seed in the darkness of Mother Earth also doesn't know when its sprouts will sprout, it simply accepts what it is and where it is,

I do not want to reject the healing methods mentioned above, they can complement and support, but will not heal in the long term.

I know that all of this brings up additional fear, despair and feelings of loneliness, but maybe everything that is happening to you right now is a master plan of your soul that knows exactly what is happening and why. We have learned to be masters in distracting from negative feelings, whether through work, alcohol, sex, drugs, friends and so much more.

I would like to offer you to accompany and support you on your way and to listen and feel where your little child is calling the loudest. I accompany you in a sensitive way thanks to my intuitive connection with your spiritual companions, who can open the doors for you to accept what needs to be accepted and brought to consciousness.

Working with your guide team is process-oriented. I compare it with the following (without wanting to criticize anyone): a tarot card can tell you that you will split up from your partner in a few months (results-oriented), your spiritual guides will pick you up where you are and accompany you in the development and growth of your soul and what it needs right now. The result is open.

Have a blessed day with all its ups and downs that want to be embraced today.

Time for healing

Yesterday I felt great anxiety and restlessness thinking about two weeks of quarantine here in Peru (which started today) and the knowledge of only being able to leave the house in an emergency - and that if I just had one already as such - going through challenging time when I felt the need to connect with people more.

Today I woke up, sat down in the garden, let the sun touch my skin and listened to the sound of water and animals around me.

And I felt PEACE (and I get goosebumps when I write this). I heard Mother Earth breathe, I felt tremendous gratitude for the silence that surrounds us through the Quarentines and the "challenges" of that time.

Finally silence in our busy world. Finally the opportunity for some more peace in my inner world. Thank you for the great opportunity to self-observe our own lives.

May we let go of the fear of our so active mind and allow ourselves in this time to listen with our inner ears, to see with our inner eyes, reconnect with our senses, with our heart. Let's listen to our fears and then in the next breath to the silence and enormous gratitude of Mother Earth for finally peace and time for rest and recovery. Time to turn into us.

Let's not miss this opportunity to reconnect with the heart of Mother Earth with open arms. May we reconnect with the truth.
Thank you, thank you, thank you.

Picture: sketch for new picture

Today I decided

Today I stopped running.

Today I stopped chasing.

Today I stopped controlling.

Today I looked at my life and realized the abundance around me and within me.

Today I decided to be entirely in GRATITUDE for my life with all its lessons – in light and darkness.

I am thankful for every person and being, that I have been able to meet and to share moments, hours or years with – angels or but angels (as Robert Betz used to say).

I feel pure gratitude for each and every place and situation, that I have been able to experience.

Everyone and everything took me to where I am and what I am now.

And I am proud of what I see. I am PERFECT as we all are, but I am also human, continuously walking a life path towards light and unconditional love.

I recognize my shadows: new shadows as well as old ones. Negative thought patterns and subsequent negative behaviours and actions who keep reappearing.

I embrace them, I give GRATITUDE to each one of them, permitting them their necessary space without putting a story behind them anymore – I consciously make that choice NOW.

In their embrace I decide to LET GO of them, to TRANSCEND them, because they don’t serve me any more on my life path.

And I emerge myself in the feeling of complete TRUST in divine perfection.

I bless myself, my life and everyone and everything around me.

THANK YOU. NAMASTÉ.

Riding new waves

I have not been writing in a while although I have not been short of topics that I had wanted to share with you. Firstly, motherhood has changed my life completely. Priorities have changed and I feel that my little one not only asks me, but even more forces me, to be in the present moment, to live the present here and now – and for me that means spending many moments of joy and happiness together – at home and in nature. And it feels wonderful. Believe it or not, it took quite a while not to feel guilty of not creating, working and thinking all the time, but I am – hopefully - finally shifting out the negative thought pattern, that I NEED to work and create to feel worthy and good enough. And motherhood is a full-time job (although I don´t want to call it that way, because the word job doesn’t always have the most pleasant connotation for me personally).

Secondly, and this is really exciting, I realized once I started changing my thought pattern – that I was creating something I had never expected: Slowly but with love and from our hearts we, as a family, started opening up our home as a small Cultural and Healing Centre: Iwa Wasi – Chaupi Tinkuy. And it feels magical! We are creating a space for people to come together to enjoy music and art, especially connecting to the Andean wisdom from the heart. Not out of books but through a living experience. Additionally, we are creating workshops for Soul Level Animal Communication, Power Animal journeys and I can´t wait to finally announce the first retreats, which we will start hosting in 2019.

This is why I have not been so present writing, but if you are interested and curious, check out our new Facebook site: www.faceboook.com/iwawasi. And - our new website will also be online soon: I will keep you posted.

For now I am sending you much love, many blessings and until very soon.